Procrastination: I'm doing it!

Why am I writing this blog? Seriously. Why?

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Okay I'll tell you. Grad school is very stressful. I think I've complained about this in nearly every post I've ever put up on this blog. But seriously, it's extremely stressful. I have several large assignments due each week, plus with all of the crap (and I'm putting that nicely) that I have to read, I need some down time. Unfortunately, I have trouble turning off my brain during this down time. 

I noticed the other day that I have been overly educated. My brain makes a million different connections a minute when given one idea. When I think about it, it's kind of like "Wiki races" where you are given a random topic with the goal of reaching another seemingly random topic as fast as you can. For example, I could give you the starting page "fly" (as in the insect) with the goal of reaching the page about Africa. The goal is to get from one to the other as quickly as possible and honestly with those particular topics, it doesn't take long. That's what my brain does. Everyday. All day long. Especially when I try to give it "down time."

I want my brain to shut up sometimes. The other day a news report made my mind go CRRRAAAZZZYYY making historical and literary connections to the point where I was like: SHUT UP BRAIN! BWAH!

Seriously it doesn't stop...

Now what was I posting about again?

Oh yeah, why am I writing this blog:

This blog has become a way for me to get my brain to calm itself down so it can go back to work. It also helps me get my super nerdy ideas out there because I cannot be the only one bothered by this stuff. There are a lot of things that really annoy me making my brain do somersaults. I used to write a journal, but I kind of gave up on that when I realized that it wasn't calming my brain down because no one was reading it. So I decided to write a blog.

This is also a way for me to procrastinate. I'm good at procrastinating, but what's ironic is that I feel like I never get anything done when I do. This blog has helped me get something done while procrastinating. 

One more thing. I have terrible social anxiety. It wasn't so bad when I was an undergrad, but it's gotten really bad now that I'm in a city that I do not know or understand with people who are unfamiliar to me. I am much better back in cow country (and no I am not some hill-billy redneck, I've just grown up in a rural area) but here in Pittsburgh... There are days where my social anxiety is so terrible that I would rather curl up in a corner and read my books all day than go out and have to interact with people. This is really bad for an aspiring librarian who has to be the social center piece of a workplace. It probably stems from being an only child and having much of my early childhood take place where there were not many children around who were my age. I got very good at entertaining myself after a while. But anyway, this gives me a way to "talk" to people without actually TALKING to them.